Chaotic Demeanor

Daily // Lord, give me ears to hear and eyes to see what you have for me.

Daily // Lord, give me ears to hear and eyes to see what you have for me.

Hello there beautiful. I cannot wait to wear you all the time this spring.

Hello there beautiful. I cannot wait to wear you all the time this spring.

Thursday. #ootd

Thursday. #ootd

Coffee and sketches // These days are the best.

Coffee and sketches // These days are the best.

Stop waiting for friday, for summer, for a boy to fall in love with you. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make something of the moment you’re in right now.

e-stablish  (via e-stablish)

(Source: moonstxr, via hw-ax)

Lunch date. #33months @jsimms1022

Lunch date. #33months @jsimms1022

Love my cozy desk. Makes late night work slightly more bearable.

Love my cozy desk. Makes late night work slightly more bearable.

1.23.14 // Denim Dedication

Today it it 18 degrees and snowy. I thought I would layer my denim with soft, warm details. (Not pictured: tan peacoat, rust red scarf, and gloves)

A workout and a smoothie. Today I start living and eating healthier.

A workout and a smoothie. Today I start living and eating healthier.

The next Step

I recently took a look back at some posts I had written but never published. I came across a piece that I wrote three years ago. It was one of the hardest years of my life, and I didn’t have the strength to share it with the world. Today, the Lord has taught and grew me tremendously so that I now have the strength to share what I wrote those many years ago. 

We all put on a face that says we’re happy, but deep down we’re all scared of something and usually we’re afraid of whats to come. In my life at least, the future is the  one thing that i am scared of, afraid of, and just flat out don’t understand. I have no idea whats to come and what i’m going to do with it when it does. When I look at the people around me, I realize that I am surrounded with the same exact thing in everyone else. Tomorrow is a terrifying thing to think of. We may think we know whats to come next, but we have no idea of the unexpected road bumps that may change our course of travel.

I expected my senior year to be the greatest year of my life. I thought I was going to have the greatest time and nothing would stand in my way of ‘living it up’. Of course, that wasn’t the case. Yes, Ive had a great time and love being 18, but I have definently had my hardships. I never expected to hit the “road bumps” that I did, but I am very glad I did. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have discovered who I really am, found a greater person in a certain loved one that I never imagined, and gotten as close to the Lord as I have. While this year has been one of the most challenging  yet, it has also been one of the greatest. I’ve learned that after a while in the dark, your eyes learn to adjust and accept. There your heart discovers faith that your mind had never found. The ones around us crawl at the outsides of the black hole trying to get in and help, while we want nothing more than to let them in. The thought of letting them in, petrifies us because it means we have to share the deepest feelings/thoughts in our heart. It may be the hardest things we have to do, but it is also the most freeing. That is one of the greatest lessons I’ve learned this past year, but I must say the faith i’ve gained is the one thing that will stay with me the longest. I now have the strength to believe that the Lord has everything in his plan and I may never know exactly what that is, but he is always there for me even when it seems He’s not.

You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word. Psalms 119:114

You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word. Psalms 119:114

Day 2 #passion2014

Day 2 #passion2014

David Crowder #passion2014

We’re here! #passion2014

We’re here! #passion2014

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
-Henry David Thoreau

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
-Henry David Thoreau